yes love hurts..

i feel so vulnerable right now, everything i say, im afraid will only push him farther away, i am so frustrated, how do i change things, how can i make this better is all that has been on my mind, every shut down i get from him, in his text, while facetime, crushes me so hard and i tear up after every response from him, and i try not to let that pressure me to give up trying, i feel so weak, i dont have strength, now i realize that my strength to continue the hardest things in life, always came from him, from his support.. i have no one to talk to now, no one to console me, the only thing that i have to help me through this situation is this blog to console me, the only place where i can let my thoughts flow and to not get hurt for what i say, and what i try to do. and i know i deserve this, this pain that he is hitting me with. and its pain that i just have to take in and accept because yes i deserve it. and yes, love hurts. love really does hurt. but i love him. and i will endure this hurt if that is the only way, my only chance, the only possibility that i can win him back.