i am pouring my heart and soul out for this person, and what i recieve are harsh cold replies, when i facetime, all i see are his empty cold eyes staring back at me. and it hurts.. and it hurts soo much... it just hurts soo much.. i just want to show him that things will be alright. let him know that things are going to be okay. i want to hold him in my arms and apologize to him, i want to hold him tight and tell him how sorry i am. i want him to see that i am hurt as well, that he is not alone. and it just hurts when i try so hard, when i send him heartfelt text messages from my heart, to get shut down lik that every time, and its so painful, and i cry and i cringe, in pain every time i recieve a text message like that from him. and i fall asleep, and i get dreams, that we are happy together, and i just filled overwhelmed with joy and bliss, and happiness, until i wake up and realize.. that that was only a dream.. and reality floats back and reminds me where i really am in life. in a shit hole. in pain. and my roomates see me cry, and they console me, but they can only console me for so long until they have to only leave me there, in my room, to cry by myself, alone.