the feeling when your heart drops. the sinking feeling you feel when your chest becomes heavy. you feel like you cant breath. you gasp for air. hyperventilate. its unescapable. no matter what you do, its there. and it lingers. it hangs around you. and it hurts, its pain. i dont know what to do about it. i want it to go away. the only person that can make it disappear is him. im trying to make him feel better. to erase any bad memories. i want his pain to subside too. it want it to go away, slowly each day, til it disappears. so that maybe, my pain will go away too. because my pain screams in agony for the pain the he feels. my only cure is the riddance of his pain. and to make him smile. make him happy again. make him feel what he once did. because i really do love this person. and because of that, i want to make him feel good, feel happy, feel no pain, but bliss. let me make it go away. let me make it all go away.