Hhhheeeeeyy every boooddy!

"Hey dr. Nick!" Lol XD sorry for the hiatus, I've been off swimming with sea turtles of the coast of Hawaii until a lil birdie told me that I had fans or A fan waitin on me! Lol I feel the pressure to have to sound cool, now that I know someone actually does read my post even though I probably sound lame right now as i speak XD It's been practically two months since in last saw Ivan and I can't believe that it's finally gonna happen, the day we've both been waiting for and hoping would happen as soon as possible is finally here and in exactly three days he's going to be in front of me, facing me, close to me, and in my arms after the longest time ever. He's coming back up to visit me, Ivan, my boyfriend<3 I'm so excited and I've been telling everyone that he's coming up, literally all my friends, and its a matter of time! I also can't wait for him to meet my new friends not from the dorms too :) There were a couple of days recently that had made me feel distance from him, it could've been the actual distance, or it could've been the fact that we hadn't seen each other in the longest time, but those couples days were the roughest and we just didn't know what was going on. But we were finally able to figure it out and Ivan told me everything and I just suddenly felt like this weight of confusion and lack of talking was finally lifted of my shoulders, the moment he told me how he felt made me feel so much more connected to him, it's do rare that he tells me how he feels but at that one moment, I felt like I finally saw inside of him, it just made me feel as if I knew him better, as if he really trusts me in a way that he could be able to tell me how he feels, this sounds like all girls stuff lik talking about emotions and feelings, but for a while I've never felt so close to him until now. Today I really felt happy, happy in that I can actually see him trying, and that was just the best and heartfelt feeling in the world. I was telling how I wasnt feeling to good about going to physical therapy volunteer and how I felt about it, and and instead of saying the old general generic things he usually says that makes me discouraged to ask for advice from he, he instead told me something much more meaningful, meaning ful in the way that I actually noticed that he was genuinely trying to help me feel better, and I really did feel better, and it made me so happy that he actually made an effort like he said to try make me feel better ans not be a "shitty boyfriend" and i can see the difference and I can see that he's trying harder and that makes all the difference, and that moment of just hearing what he had to say made the entire difference in my day, and I decided to go to physical therapy with a better attitude than I had in the beginning. I feel suddenly so close to him, hes the one person i can feel sooo comfortable talking to,he's the one person I can feel like I can talk to about anything now, especially since he's trying harder in relation to telling me things and talking about stuff with me:) I just came off the phone with him and it was one of the best phone calls we've had in a while, it was an hour long and we had so much things to talk about,it started on a good note an it was almost endless and loved it! He is fun and enjoyable to talk to, we were just talking about random things, and plans for what were gonna do up here and it's always exciting for me to hear what he's gonna say next especially when he always starts off with " hey, so um...." And then there's always the pause where I get all anxious to hear what he's gonna say, and then he continues his sentence again hahah anyways dos mas days :)) That's him, that's my boyfriend <3 ... NOT that wee asain boy, but that hunk a hunk mexican hottie!