I just want to smother him right now!

but I can't because he's sleeping on my bed ;) At times, I wish I could give him a tight hug or a kiss or a cuddle that would be worth all the summer days packed into one. I just want to be near him for as much as I can. I feel so rushed. I can't stand that feeling. Whenever I feel rushed, I feel as if my mind/body just freezes in panic mode, which doesn't help if it makes feel as if I'm at a standtstill >< The guy is freaken amazing. I am unworthy!!! jk. but sometimes I think that for fun. Knows what he wants, in control of his feelings, never freaks out, so fun, cares, affectionate, listens, understands, COOL, everything thats considered awesome amazing extraordinary one and only, funny, silly, ruh-tarded, dark, tall, and handsome, cute, adorable, loves me, love him to death, MY Ivan Valentin Mercado.