Summer, I'm feeling the dread that my lazy afternoons, my everyday bike rides with Ivan, the bum days that we have at each others casas, and the careless worry of school are inevitably ticking to a close.

The bestest person in the whole wide world. 

I don't want it to go away, I want it to stay! and with everything along with it! I love the cool afternoons when I spend it with him. Sometimes just sitting and catching the breeze on his roof and talking, or watching a movie  or nap in his room, we could just be watching tv with his brothers and sisters in their "library" or bike ride home to my place. And when he comes over to my place, we bum it allday errday! sometimes getting some baskin robins, watching a movie, or eating my vietnamese food that I make for him, or just snuggling up and taking a nap. I love the jump bear hugs that I'll attack him with, where I'll just stick to him and won't ever let go unless he force pulls me off of him. I'll even climb my way to the top and give you a little peck! :3 Our tickle fights are deadly. Pinned to the ground, struggling, were the perfect match for each other, I ain't ever gonna give in! You can tickle me to death all you want! I'm just waiting for the perfect moment where I'll swoop from under your grip and take you down like theres no manana. This aint no girl fight ladies and gentlemen. 


More than anything, I've also grown to feel really really close to him. More than the beginning of summer.  I know I went through a phase where I was just paranoid, and it was just hard for me to believe and see what was really there. And that was because I was afraid, I didn't allow myself to trust my heart or my mind. I was more petty, I worried about petty things, made a big deal about petty things that I wouldn't even bother being worried about now. I hope what I say now doesn't jinx anything ><. I cringe just talking about my past, and I still get scared sometimes that that mindset would come back. But as the summer progressed, that side of me definatley faded. I was feeling more confident, and I trusted myself more than ever. For sure, the talks that I had with him really made me feel closer and connected with him.  I just wanted to let him know the thoughts in my mind, tell him what  I was thinking, and tell me what he was thinking. 


I felt free-minded to be silly again and not worry about nonsense things. He is there by my side, and I am there by his. I love him, He loves me. That is all the matters. We live each day in the present as it comes, and each present comes with nothing more than freaken awesomeness!


My friend Juan was surprised that I've spent almost every day of summer with him and haven't gotten tired of hanging with him everyday. I guess I'm a bit surprised too. Usually people would get tired or bored, sick or even annoyed when they start to spend a lot of time with a person, but that hasn't happened to me and Ivan, and I doubt that ever will. I love spending time with him. I don't care what we do, it could be an eventful day for of action and pizazz or the most bummiest day that not even the bummest person in the world can out bum it. And never have I once thought that I could be doing something better than be hanging with him. I just enjoy his company. He makes me smile and get the willie nillies :)