Tuesday, January 08, 2008

"maybe then you can say to them, 'thank you for the memories'"

The meeting point between two years means:
1. We have to buy new calendars - some of us are lucky enough to have them bought for us through the sneaky mechanism of the Christmas gift phenomenon.
2. We spend the first few days of the new year slapping our coarse hands on our heads for getting the date wrong, hence that dreaded parking fine.
3. Everyone sets out to make their resolutions, and then blog about them. Eventually, most people forget about the resolutions but this is a fact that is taboo and best left ignored.

The above 3 points are a given, no matter the continent or country. As long as Cuba and North Korea produce calendars, then yes, this includes them too. The blogging in the third point leaves room for debate though - one is unsure of the blogging regulations in a country such as Cuba being of the social variant that is Ignorant First World Citizen Who Only Equates Cuba With Castro, Cigars and Colourful Shirts.

Aspiring social deviant that I am, I neglected to make any resolutions, let alone blog about them. I saw this as not really social deviance but simply being pragmatic and out of character. First, I felt I was bound to break a resolution so why make one anyway? Second, I had my mind occupied by other matters. Things change, they say, and I have chanced upon one resolution - my 2008 theme is selfishness.

Owing to a long string of mental and emotional discomforts, the root cause of these has been attempted to be uncovered. Letting other people shape my life (viewpoints and decisions and eating habits all included) has somehow made me an embarrassed handicap. I need practice to make my mistakes and do what I want to do. I even have approval from enough Authority Figures in my life and will begin doing what I want. If that means downloading music illegally, so be it. If that means crashing into papaya trees and ramming the nose of the car against the tree trunk repeatedly, eventually dying rather tragically from a wayward papaya and not from any automobile-related mishap, then so be it. If that means eating noodles with a fork and not a chopstick, then chopstick manufacturers can kiss their tree-felling, earth-wasting, life-culling businesses goodbye!

Besides, it makes me feel less condemned and judged. I don't have to walk about feeling like all I can make are mistakes and all I can do is myself in and all I can be is a renegade. It gets tiring making people happy. I'm like a carrot feeding a hare family and I'm running out of orange.

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